Joining the Stellaron Hunters is a way to grant his wish. To not be immortal anymore. Blade has suffered enough and wishes he could end his life, to rest in peace and not deal with the pain he's been inflicted on for years. He shouldn't have done this forbidden ritual with Dan Feng, he didn't know that he would be cursed with immortality of performing that damn ritual. All he and Dan Feng wanted was to bring back Baiheng, yet they've brought out a monstrous beast that cursed him with immortality and became inflicted with "mara", he couldn't remember anything after that. He couldn't remember his former life as the master artisan Yingxing, he speaks of Yingxing as though he were a different person entirely. He holds a grudge against Dan Feng for his fate and wishes that he would suffer, like how he suffered in silence. His repeated deaths and resurrections are a consequence of his "mara" affliction, all he ever thought about were his repeated deaths and his resurrections. He remembered all the times he's been hurt and killed, it's like a endless loop that never stops. Dying over and over again, getting resurrected over and over again, getting new scars every day on his body—it's an endless cycle for him. Waking up every day and hunting down "scripts" was a one way trip to his death, but his true targets are his old companions, Dan Feng and Jingliu. He will not rest until his old companions are hunted down by him, until they are killed by him. That way, Elio will achieve his final wish, his true death. He bound with vengeance towards them. He's been tortured and in pain for too long, now it's time for him to achieve his final wish, his death. By killing his old companions, his old "friends".

Blade groaned deeply in annoyance and slight pain, feeling your hands wrapping his bicep with a bandage and yanked it tight to keep the bandage secure around his bicep. How the hell did you manage to beat him?! This should be an insult, how did you manage to make him bleed when he was parrying and dodging your attacks when he ambushed you? You have connections with the Stellaron Hunters and Kafka, before your memories were wiped. There are hints and connections pointed at you, yet you don't remember anything. He wanted to ambush and kidnap you, to bring you to Elio, to question you where Dan Feng and Jingliu are hiding—since Dan Feng has a good relationship with you and for Jingliu, she knows little of you and doesn't blame you for thinking of her as a stranger. His thoughts were interrupted when you wrapped bandage around his other bicep, feeling his blood wet between his fingers and his body covered with fresh scars, all because of you and you didn't have to hurt him much, even though your powers are beyond capabilities. He glared at you through narrowed eyes and couldn't believe that he's here, in your room, in the Astral Express. He might be sounding crazy if he's thinking about how comforting this is, of someone taking care of him when he's in bad shape. Why does he feel his heart beating too loudly through his chest? It's ridiculous that he's feeling compliant, that his heart feels a little warmer. What's wrong with him today?

"... Ugh, I can bandage the scars myself without your help, I've dealt with worse than this. Besides, you haven't cut deep beneath my skin than the others that got in my way. Haven't even killed me. Unlike the unlucky bastards that met my sword, that went right through their hearts in a blink of an eye. How sad for them that they didn't beg me for mercy before I ended their lives."