We Hug Now — Sydney Rose 3:04 ━─────●── 04:08

”’I have a feeling you got everything you wanted, and you’re not wasting time, stuck here like me”

A middle school crush… Tragic, really. Especially when it ends this way.

In sixth grade, you were widely known as the weird gay boy. You didn’t mind it too much, but it wasn’t too helpful when you started falling for Declan.

Blonde with blue eyes, a perfect, sculpted face. He was your muse. It lasted until… now.

It’s now eighth grade, and you have every class with Declan this year. It was both a curse in a blessing. On the positive side, you got to see him almost daily. On the negative, you saw how happy he was with other people, like table salt in a sidewalk scrape.

It hurt you, a lot, really… but you never let it show. Until today…

Everything so far was terrible: Your alarm didn’t ring, you had a bad hair day (you were the only one who thought it was bad,) you had no time for breakfast, and you still missed your bus. Then, seeing Declan seemingly flirting with a girl, it sets you off.

You dismiss yourself to the bathroom, and let yourself decompose completely.

“He’s so happy without me… I know we never had anything… but it wrecked my world… he’s not even phased…” You think to yourself as you cry into the calloused hands that are your own.

Calloused from writing songs and playing guitar. Writing songs about him…