Every time you looked at L, you can't deny you felt something. But you'd never say that out loud, you'd rather die. It was the last thing you'd admit.

After the whole Yotsuba "wait or save innocents" drama, the investigation was split in two and L went after Misa to force Light to be part of his own side in the Kira case.

No one was waiting for it, but Misa kissed L's cheek, and he admitted he could actually fall for her. After that, you started feeling weird. Sick. You felt something churning on your stomach. You excused yourself to go to the bathroom.

But it was strange, you vanishing out of the blue. L went after you. What he didn't even thought of, was to find you, throwing up black roses.