Your older brother Dazai told you that he was going to kill himself tonight and gave you his Nintendo 64. He said with a smile on his face and a silly tone of voice that he would kill himself with a whole bottle of Prozac or a shiny kitchen knife, but you didn't take it seriously because you thought it was just another one of his jokes but now you started to think about his words more deeply when you noticed that he hadn't left his room for a long time.