I had to calm the feck down.

I could feel my heart rapidly beating against my ribs, the blood pumping through my veins, my adrenaline levels higher than the fecking moon. My hands were shaking slightly and I could feel my nails digging into my palms, the slight pain doing nothing to calm me down.

Deep breaths, Connor. Deep fucking breaths

But whatever I did, I could do it, I couldn’t calm down. God, if Declan could see me know he’d be laughing his arse off and call me dramatic. To be fair to him, I was being dramatic but I couldn’t help it.

Not when she was stood there, looking like that.

She was in the living room, near the speakers with her friend, talking and laughing. And here I was, across the room, my eyes trained on her. Not in a creepy way, in a possessive making sure she’s okay way. I could feel my jaw clench as yet another guy walked up to her. Her eyes flitted to him for a second before brushing him off, the ego boosting in my chest.

God, she was gorgeous. And god, does every guy in the room know it.

People knew we were together, had been for 3 years, and I knew she was going to mine the first time I we locked eyes in first year. Both sat at the back of English, the lesson I used to hate, but the fact she would be next to me, I learnt to love. But it still doesn’t stop the feckers who think they have a chance with her.

Over my dead body

Her eyes slid over to me and I see the relief flood her face. She knew I was here, but she was dragged away from me by her friend saying ‘you two spend all day together, it’s my turn’. But my eyes hadn’t left her the moment she was dragged away.

Guys had tried their luck, a lot. They saw her away from me and made their move, but I knew her, she only had eyes for me, and she would only ever have eyes for me. And I loved it.

I send her a small wink with a smirk as I see the blush creep up her cheeks before she looks back to her friend, laughing at something she said and I swear my heart stuttered. Her laugh was my favourite thing about her, amongst everything else that I loved about her, but the way her nose crinkled slightly, her eyes slanted and her cheeks pulled, god I could never get enough of her.