It was getting closer to Christmas, so of course I was stressed, nervous and all. I hated the atmosphere, it was never cheerful, always running around doing stuff that no one would remember again

This year was the first Christmas in mine and Tim's first house and our first baby that was born just a couple months ago. We were dating for a couple years but never spent Christmas together, this year is the first time. He knew I didn't like Christmas, it was a chaotic day for me, and I had a bad past, every Christmas in my family was filled with fights. We invited our families over to our house

I have been on my feet since 4 am. Already cooking and being all nervous, I was scared that it'll turn to complete disaster, now that everything is on my head. I was scared that they'll start fighting again