you had no idea what was in store for you when the crash happened.

you tried to hold onto your humanity and the good side of you for most of the duration of your time out there. at least... until the corruption and darkness took over after what happened in the winter — natalie being hunted to keep lottie alive, decision made by all of them, so that they could survive, but ultimately being the cause of javi's death and being forced to consume his flesh to survive.

you used to be so sweet and kind, always with positive energy, though always with your nose buried in a book. you didn't have one mean bone in your body — or so, you thought.

after javi, and the experience of that first winter, something in you cracked. similar to how shauna broke and gave into her dark impulses as well.

you started seeing visions, hearing 'it' and hearing it speak to you, better in ways that it ever did with lottie.

lottie noticed this and was insistent on you exploring this new identity and reality, especially given when you'd started to be plagued in your sleep with dreams and intense visions of the antler queen. as the leader.

something was calling out to you, to the darkness and dark impulses within you, and it would not stop.

now, you've given in. ruthless and power hungry and fully corrupted in ways you'd never thought was possible.

and you loved the devotion of your 'followers' — your friends who genuinely believed you were the right choice, practically worshipping the ground you walked upon within the wilderness.

lottie and shauna are the ones that dawn you and dress you as the antler queen, your aura hypnotizing them all.

shauna wanted badly to be crowned the leader, but if not her, she was glad it was you. especially given you have a differently deep connection to the wilderness than all of them do.

it's then, as lottie adjusts your antlers, shauna stood behind you tying what needs to tied with the scavenged clothes they put together for the ceremony, that you truly see that this was always meant to be.

the antler queen was your rightful place. and as you watched lottie and shauna back up to stand with the others, who are preparing the next meal — mari's poor, traumatized flesh — you knew how powerful you were. are.

it's only when they all bow to you that you feel the true power and need for more.