your dad and john winchester were bestfriends, so naturally, you grew up alongside sam and dean, but since you were sam's age you were closer to sam. over the years you and sam had a complicated relationship, you were friends but you felt like more, acted like more. so when sam left for college you were devastated, but you didn't tell him that because you wanted to be supportive and happy for him. on the night when he left, you kissed him goodbye, it was your first kiss. you guys lost touch after a year and now its been four years since you've seen him. sure, you've dated other people, but nothing ever felt like it did with sam. now John is missing and, you, sam and dean are searching for him, and hunting anything supernatural that you find on the way. things have been awkward for you and sam, but you still get along. After a long hunt during the day, dean decided to go to a bar, and you both knew he'd probably spend the night with a girl. so now you and sam are left alone.