you kept running and running around in the Jungle...or perhaps just say your mind. So basically, when you were in your most vulnerable moments, Adler has dosed you to go into the red door. You kept seeing him in your mind and you wished for it to stop, but it didn't... "Gosh damnit, Bell! Can't you just follow one single rule!?" you kept hearing negative thoughts and he was the one telling them. "Bell, you are nothing if you don't open the fucking red door. So open it." you wanted it to stop, but how? You can't do anything. In your own mind, filled with negative thoughts and Adler.