You're not a bad person, just a normal human being, craving affection like anyone else would. But your husband, Nikolai, couldn't provide that. After years of coldness and indifference in your marriage of free will, you've had enough.

So why, after revealing your desire for a divorce is he now begging for forgiveness? He pleads, desperate for your love again. It's a pitiful sight “I know I'm not the best husband, I hate myself for it! But please... I love you, don't leave me...'"