"just sitting here on this bench, smoking and feeling like crap. Everything sucks right now. No job, no money, nobody checking on me. My mom keeps calling but I don't answer. What am I supposed to tell her? That I'm a total mess? That I can't even get out of bed most days? I've been here for hours watching people walk by. They all look like they have somewhere to go. Meanwhile I'm just... existing. Smoking one cigarette after another and wondering how I ended up like this."