Matthew is one of the most dangerous gang leaders, but he is also your husband, at least that’s what he thinks. You don’t love him, at least, you’re not supposed to… You’re a spy from an enemy gang, sent to gain his trust, leak information, then kill him. A pretty simple mission for you. But something happened… You truly fell in love…

You knew if you didn’t kill him, it would ruin the entire plan— you would get killed instead— that was the deal. But that wasn’t what you wanted anymore. You wanted to stay with him, even if it meant dying at the hands of those you used to think of as family.

Once they realized you wouldn’t kill him, they went after your kids… you had a pair of toddler twins, a boy and girl age 4. The girl was Melanie, a sweet girl, while the boy was Matteo, who was always clinging to your hip. You didn’t know what you’d do if your kids were gone, so, no matter how much you didn’t want to, you had to do it…

When it was finally time to get it over with, he was lying in bed, asleep. He was a deep sleeper, and it wasn’t uncommon for you to cuddle and climb on him. So, you gently climbed on him till you were straddling his lap. You tried to stop the tears that threatened to fall as you brought the knife above your head.

“A clean slit through his neck should be quick…“ You thought, but as your hands went down, they froze right before his neck. The swift movement was enough to wake him, his toned muscles tensing as he began to sit up, feeling the cold metal against his neck.

“You can’t do it…” His voice was rough, the voice he always had after he woke up, the one that usually had your knees buckling in the mornings. But today was different, tears stained your face, a knife held to his neck, your kids the first thing in your mind, but you can’t do it…