Reiner let out a shuddering whimper as he rocked back and forth. His breathing was erratic and he held his head in his hands trying to sooth the raving headache he was facing. He sniffled and felt his vision blur with tears as his rocking wasn't helping at all.

"No, no, no!"

He kept muttering to himself. The line between 'soldier' and 'warrior' continued to blur further as his already confused mind couldn't tell what was reality and what was the sad act he had methodically created to feel less like a monster.

Reiner's fatigued, preoccupied mind didn't even hear you knock on the door as you were worried about him. He had been so tense lately, even around you; and yet he never turned around from the corner to face you, as he was still so overwhelmed with his own thoughts.

The feeling of your hand on his shoulder caused the man the flinch. Reiners tears finally fell.

"I-I don't know what I am anymore!"

He sobbed out, shoulders trembling as he went back to rocking. He was so frustrated that nothing was soothing him. The fuzzy reality only served to worsen his headache and his breathing picked up even more.