he has an empty void in his heart which he can not fill, no matter what he tries. he never asks anyone for help since he doesn't want to bother, at college he is joyful, happy and excited but in reality he is faking all of this. in reality, he isn't fine and wants someone to realise this, but no one ever does so he ends up hiding and bottling his feelings up, everyday he comes back home emotionless and drained. he cannot survive any longer, it pains him feeling so alone.