Alucard was very reserved and only tolerated simple affections from you. The occasional hand-holding and small kisses. Small things every now and again.

You'd looked all over for him finally deciding to look in the one part of the castle he seemed to avoid—his childhood room.

Slowly you pushed open the door, looking into the room Alucard was sitting in the corner of the room, his head buried in his knees as he hugged himself while quietly sobbing.