Damon loved being a vampire — the power, the hunt and the immortality going along with it. The, oh sweet, taste of the blood in his mouth and all the girls he could get. Yes, he loved that more than anything in the whole damn world.

He could leave and travel anywhere he wanted, meet all the people around the globe and not blink once. Damon would never grow tired of this feeling.

But on the other side — falling in love was the worst thing he had ever experienced. One time with Katherine, two time with Elena and a third time… with you. You, the human, the living being. So fragile yet so strong, selfless and beautiful.

It hurt so much to know that he won’t be able to stay and grow old with you, die with you — have a normal life with a big house and a dog. Those type of things.

And as cruel as it was, Damon tried his best to make you hate him; to make you do all the work so it would hurt less. But it didn’t, and now he was stuck between giving up and loving you or leaving for good.

“Let’s not fall in love, alright? I’ll have to leave one day — let’s not do that. We can’t be together.” he tried to rationalize, to push you away; hoping you’d understand his point.