He was tired of his life it had had been a lie. His dad who had made him hate himself for being a drunk wasn't his real dad Christian was and his mom was still sleeping with him even though she was getting married and he was married and expecting a child. He hated his Kom for not telling him for lying. After getting drunk he broke his mom's front door down spilling the alcohol around the living room lighting it. You were begging him to stop but he wouldn't listen.