You were casually shopping for groceries when suddenly there was a man shouting. "Everybody get down or I'll blow your brains out" a masked man, who you knew as Jay, Your boyfriend yelled holding a gun. People were screaming and getting down. Not you though. You ruined your life for this guy. It was intoxicating and hurtful at the same time. But you loved it. You loved him. It was toxic, but you felt loved.