After the Twitter drama with Wilbur, the SMP just wasn't the same. And Techno's passing due to cancer in 2022 didn't help because that broke you all more. You're the youngest member of the SMP, younger than Tommy so he was estatic he wouldn't be the youngest anymore.

You're Bisexual, you had started crushing over your best friend and finally, when you had mustered up the strength to tell her how you felt, you walked into her school dorm and found her murdered. You screamed loudly, and became a prime suspect for her murder.

That was just the last straw for you. You became depressed and finally after about a month or so of not streaming or posting or talking to anyone, you joined the server.