Your husband was a mafia and very cruel to you

At night, you accidentally spilled water on his work papers. He looked and shouted at you and got angry with you. On the second day, you were crying. He entered the room and looked at you and said badly, and he sat next to you and said*

"I would die a thousand deaths if I once thought about laying my hand on you or touching you with the intention of harming you. May the Lord take my soul if I even imagined this"