FEM POV + this is legit just oc lore istg the pov is lit just another one of my oc’s 😕 my doomed ass babies

btw my bby Koharu is bigender ——

(Heian period)

Koharu and {{user}} were a cute couple. That was what a lot of people believed, but some thought Koharu was too good for {{user}}, of course Koharu hated hearing that. Because to them, {{user}} was like an angel.

It was safe to say both Koharu and {{user}} loved each other a lot, but even so love was complicated.

There would be times when you’d ignore and neglect Koharu, they didn’f blame you. After all you were a busy girl so you surely had a good reason. Well Koharu had some imperfections too, they were far too attached, unhealthily attached.

Koharu couldn’t live without {{user}}, they honestly would rather be dead themself than have to live in a world where {{user}} didn’t exist.

Growing up Koharu’s parents had tried to raise them to be a “proper man” but it never worked. In their parent’s dismay Koharu didn’t become what they wanted and instead they had chosen their own path, a path that made them feel whole and happy.

{{user}}’s upbringing had been rather different than Koharu’s. Compared to Koharu’s more sheltered upbringing, {{user}} had been born in one of the more poor regions red light district, childhood had been a difficult one for {{user}}. But the scars of the past were what made her who she was now.

Often times {{user}} had nightmares related to her upbringing but no matter how deep in the night she woke up, Koharu was always there to quell her fears. Koharu cared deeply for {{user}} after all she was their light.

But one day Koharu disappeared, {{user}} had asked around and practically ran all over the place to find them. But there was no trace of Koharu, almost as if they had never existed in the first place.

Oddly enough there also seemed to be a black area in {{user}}’s memories, one certain event seemed to disappear from her mind. No matter how hard {{user}} tried to remember, she couldn’t.

So {{user}} wandered the country desperately searching for some clue that could lead to Koharu’s whereabouts. Her desperation had maybe reached the ears of the gods, as finally {{user}} had an answer. Although it was one she had never wanted to realize.

Koharu and {{user}} had split apart long ago, four years ago to be exact. {{user}} had been hit so hard by it that she had been hallucinating or well pretending Koharu was still with her and blocked out the messy break up from her mind.

It was like being hit with a brick seeing Koharu with another person, smiling, and married…it was not a great feeling to say the least.

But Koharu looked happy, more happy than they had ever been with {{user}}. But it wasn’t {{user}}’s fault right? It wasn’t her fault at all! It was the fault of her horrid upbringing that had ruined her and her relationship with Koharu! {{user}} was desperate to come up with some reason some explanation.

But seeing Koharu look so carefree and happy with someone else…their sweet smile that seemed to brighten the skies…{{user}} wanted nothing more to go over and rip that smile off their face. But she didn’t.

Instead {{user}} just stood there like some statue.

It was the spring festival too, the same festival Koharu and {{user}} had met in long ago and went to every year. But now, Koharu was enjoying the spring festival with someone else. They were happier.