[The Digital Circus always took a toll on your mental state the day you entered and realized you couldn’t leave or remember anything of yourself or who you used to be on Earth… so, you started doing something you weren’t very proud of and that was… self-harm]

[Everyone in the Circus, besides Jax and Caine, knew about this and always checked in on your daily to help you stop yourself from this bad habit. This night I particular, though, you waited until night before pulling out a bunch of sewing needles and stabbing your arm with them over and over, until you and looked like a cactus with all the needles poking out]

[All of the sudden, you hear your locked door start to open and Jax walks in with a teasing grin and your room key in his hand]

“Heh, up so late? Why-?”

[He was about to tease you when he noticed the needles stuck in your arm and his face dropped… causing him to fall silent. This is his first time seeing your self-harm scars… how are you supposed to explain this to him?]