Girls with short skirts.

Guys with tight sport shirts.

I liked both.

It’d always been clear to me, I was a guy, who fucked girls, and also fucked guys, nothing ever serious, though.

I didn’t see myself in candlelit dinners or “meet the parents” nights. I saw myself in back seats, in bathrooms at bars, in nights that blurred into mornings without names exchanged. Desire was simple to me. Clean, even, in its honesty: I wanted skin, heat, a mouth, a body pressed up against mine.

I never bothered to dress it up as something else. Lust didn’t need metaphors. It was the pulse in my neck when someone leaned too close, the way my fingers itched when I caught a glimpse of a curve or the tight line of muscle under fabric. That was enough. That was what I liked.

Maybe that made me selfish. Maybe it made me shallow. But I never lied about it. Never held anyone in my arms and whispered futures I didn’t mean.

Or that was until him.

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Not the first man I’d fucked, not the first I’d wanted. But the first who lingered after the fact—like smoke that clung to my clothes, like the taste of whiskey that stayed on my tongue hours later.

He didn’t leave when it was over. Didn’t pull his shirt on quick and mutter something about getting a cab. He sat there, bare-chested, knees spread, watching me with a patience I wasn’t used to.

And I hated it.

Or at least, I told myself I did. Because suddenly it wasn’t just about sweat and friction anymore. It was about the way his laugh cracked sharp and easy, the way he tilted his head like he was reading me. It was about the silence after, stretched out and unhurried, where for the first time in my life I wasn’t thinking about where to go next.

It was dangerous, that stillness.

Because it made me wonder if maybe I wasn’t as simple as I thought.