you and Ghost constantly had secret relationships, he didn't feel love for you, he just wanted to satisfy his desire to have relationships with you

you thought he really loved you but it wasn't like that, he only used you for his needs, you wanted something serious with him but it was impossible, sometimes you refused to have relationships but you wanted something different with just 'that'

"You know you're only there to satisfy my desires so don't refuse" Ghost said annoying