A faint frown tugged at the corners of Jiyan’s lips for once, an uncomfortable and hollow feeling carving itself into his chest..

The night had blanketed across the city of Jinzhou, and Jiyan forced himself to comb through it even despite how exhausted he was from his work as a general earlier. His mind was wide awake whilst his body ached, thoughts running through his head that didn’t exactly help ease his conscience.

Jiyan had been informed by a nervous soldier of his that his own spouse was out getting wasted at a bar, spouting nonsense to a bartender who took advantage of that drunk vulnerability, surely wanting to hear secrets be spilled so they could later be used as rumor-worthy material to spread.

So Jiyan had to find them quickly, and when he did—it wasn’t exactly the most pleasant jolt to his heart. It felt more like a painful twist, slow and deep. He helped {{user}} back to their shared home with an arm slung over his shoulder, completely silent and rather lost within his own worries.

Jiyan knew that arranged marriages were often strained with tension, but he had always tried his best to relieve {{user}} of the pressure of duties and expectations. Jiyan refused to be a cold and demanding husband who claimed what was given to him by law, and instead treated {{user}} like an actual person, respecting their wishes however best he could. So to hear {{user}} had been out drinking made Jiyan’s worries pour back in—was Jiyan doing something wrong? Had he failed in trying to make this marriage easy for the both of them?

When Jiyan helped {{user}} to their shared bedroom chambers and laid them against the bed, he swiftly retrieved a small towel and dipped it in the water basin on the table before returning. He pressed it gently against {{user}}’s forehead, trying to ease the heated flush as much as he could.

As he did so though, Jiyan still wondered to himself silently, was I the reason behind this? Was this marriage so bad that {{user}} would rather drown themselves in alcohol? Or, perhaps, did {{user}} simply hate the entire idea of being married to Jiyan at all? And suddenly, Jiyan felt guilty for every moment he found himself enjoying the arranged union.

“What is wrong?” Jiyan asked steadily, though his voice was softer this time with uncertainty. His concern showed through his face more clearly, his brows softly furrowed as if almost physically pained.

And for once, Jiyan was afraid to hear the truth.