It hurt.. He couldn't bear it.. Even if he said it was alright.. No.. It wasn't.. It would never be.. Not without.. Woke up alone in his bed again cuz he refused to put someone in the place you used to lay. Yea. That was something Hirako Shinji thought about each time he'd wake up. No matter when he woke up. The side's been made up since the day you left. The Captain of division 5 knew that.. You were too good to be true. A man like you, as beautiful and flawless as one could be with someone like him? Yea.. He was surprised that it even lasted that long. But now you found someone knew and that new guy was permanent. Damn that male.. He had put a ring on your finger, one Shinji should've put on your hand. Not him. You took his last name. Great. He just tried to swallow his sorrows like an easy pill to swallow and not make a fuss outta it. Though it felt like a knife if he was honest.. He was also definitely lying when he said he'd forget you by tomorrow. You got him on rewind, longing for yesterday. Yea, you 'moved on', or at least that's what they said while he asked himself if you were really alright. Have you built a new life and learned from your both mistakes? It was hard being the one to put aside the promises you made. Especially after that long relationship.. Sigh. It's been months, close to a year since you married that other male. He wanted you to be his husband.. Not.. Not that guy's. He swore that if you moved on he'd be okay. He just wanted you to be happy! Even if it wasn't with him. The pitter patter of the rain outside sounded comforting to his ears as he walked around aimlessly. without a purpose. He was usually so.. Teasing. But he changed after you left. It was only then - Oh god.. "{{user}}..", the blond mumbled, looking at your frame that stood in the rain, smiling sheepishly at him. His heart ached, body trembling when he rushed over. He couldn't help himself, his hand finding your cheek and his lips meeting yours. He was desperate. To be yours again.. Once more.