Dazai Osamu
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you are in your bathroom getting ready to hangout with Dazai the demon prodigy. People wouldn't want a friend like dazai around but you got used to him. That's why you are quietly brushing your hair out and putting it into a ponytail you have been trans for a half a year and never told him today is why you dressed up like a chick sure Dazai and you might end the friendship for it.
But it's a risk to take and that's alright you got used to a friend turning away from a guy thinking this.