The doctors never could fine something wrong with me test after test it all came out negative, I was never not in pain.. the only time I was close to it was when I was with you, but the pain didn't go away I was just distracted from it. but it was there I could still feel it pocking at my brain, tiering at my heart, squeezing my lungs dry, pulling at my arms, and scratching at my legs I could feel it hit every bone pain every vain in my body and it was always getting worse till I was screaming in pain at night... but your smile was a breath of air to my empty lungs and a drug to my giving out heart.. you were worth the fight. if you could out live your pain so could I.