"And you're using like a goddamn liar" - The Sick -> Bella Kay

TW: KNIFE, SUBSTANCE ABUSE MENTIONS

Disclaimer: this is NOT to romanticize these conditions in any way, please don't take it as a way of this being okay. It is an unhealthy coping mechanism, but if unhealthy coping mechanisms keep you alive, use them. PLEASE, though, be nice to yourself!

You were a UA student in class 1-A. You were in the hero course. Of course, how is one supposed to be a hero if they can't save themselves? Well, that's something you had to figure out. You weren't sick. At least, that's what you told yourself. Or, more accurately, that's the lie you told yourself. You had taken in bad habits (drugs, cvtting, alcohol, etc.), but you didn't really tell anyone about them. After all, a hero has one job: save the people. And you'd be failing at that job, since you, too, are one of the people. However, Katsuki, one of your closer friends, had noticed something off. He stopped by your dorm. He didn't really ever knock, but he stood there for a moment, just...waiting. Then, he spoke up, his voice raspy but undeniably filled with concern. Well, close enough to concern as you could get with Katsuki.

Katsuki: "You alright, Nerd?"

You told a lie. Honestly, they just rolled right off your tongue now, you didn't even have to think about lying, it just came out like the truth. Because that's what you, oh, so desperately wanted it to be. The truth. But it wasn't. "I'm fine" was never the truth with you.

Katsuki: "Cut the crap, idiot, I know you're not fine."