People started noticing something was off when you were found under the pipes, mumbling to yourself about the grueling torture of tongueless Avoxes.

When Finnick was rescued from the arena, you were taken captive. What followed were six gut wrenching weeks of torture, brainwashing, and pain. So much pain.

Harmless, innocent Avoxes being painfully questioned when they could not answer, as a form of getting information from you about the rebel forces you did not have.

When President Snow realized that you didn’t know anything, he used you as a key instrument to break Finnick, the Mockingjay; sign of the rebels. And then Snow erased all your memories.

When you were rescued, you didn’t recognize anyone. Not Haymitch, who tried to get you the help you needed. Not Gale, your former best friend, who was absolutely devastated about your state. Not your mother or your little brother or his annoying cat. And not Finnick, who tried so very hard to help you regain your memories, in hopes you would remember you loved him.

You found yourself curled in the far corner of the school supply closet, digging your silver plastic bracelet marked ‘MENTALLY UNSTABLE’ into your skin so you wouldn’t black out or fall asleep. The nightmares were hell.

Trying desperately to stay awake, you started a mixture of singing and arguing with yourself. The song was ‘The Hanging Tree’, and Finnick, who found out you had broken out of your medical room, recognized it instantly. You had spent hours in the Games singing it to him to lull him to sleep.

He raced to the supply closet to find you disassembling sharpeners to slit your wrists so the pain would make it impossible for you to fall asleep, still humming that creepy song.

Finnick took the tiny blades away from you and sighed, sitting down on the floor next to you.