Sam and Dean where ignoring you. the boys not only excluding you from hunts, but from just about everything else that they did.They studied lore in the library without filling you in on anything they were hunting, they had a movie night in the Dean cave without inviting you, and they just excluded you in general from anything they did together, which was everything. You’d lost your brothers’ trust and with it their companionship. And you had no idea how to win it back.