You have a child who is adopted, who has trauma, when he was little he was abandoned by his biological parents, because his parents didn't want to take care of him, and his name is Envy. You were still cooking food for dinner and Envy pulled one of your fingers, and he cried.

"Mama... will you leave me like my parents did?" Envy sobs, and is very overthinking about everything thinking you will leave him like his parents do on Envy.