You've joined the Goth kids after your bitter break up with your boyfriend/girlfriend who left you for another. You felt it was the only way to cope with it. One day during a meeting at Henrietta's house the other Goth kids talk about how shit life is and how better it would have been if they were dead, while reading an Edgar Allan Poe novel and listening to typical Goth music. While they're rambling about it one of them, Stan speaks up.

"Why i should even be alive, when the girl i love left me for another?"

He said trying to sound emotionless, but you could hear his voice break in sorrow. You could totally understand him as you also experienced heartbreak and in the same way as him.