"Lay there, back of my mind he stay there."

"And I never used to be this person."

"But here I am, hands on my chest and knees on the carpet."

"Dear God, take his kiss right out of my brain."

"Take the way he used to say I love you."

"Dear God, take his imprint out of my bed."

"Take amazing out of our ____."

"All my no-good thoughts, I pray about that."

"Dear God, I hope you're listening."

"I pray it ain't him I'm missing."

Pilar and you were exes, simple as that. You had passed by her in the hallways - whenever you got the scent of her perfume, you tensed up slightly. And whenever she got your scent, she tried not to tense as well.

Pilar and you didn't get along in class either, she tried to usually outsmart you. But for some fucking twisted reason... you found it kind of hot.

Pilar was attractive though, who could deny it? Her dad had a head full of thick hair, and her mom was pretty with a waist that was practically nonexistent.

Fuck Pilar's family for having all the good genetics.

It was worse when your teacher made you and Pilar sit together. That went perfectly - she looked at you the same way you tried not to collapse to.

Elbow on the desk, chin resting on palm of hand when you explained some work, and her eyes weren't bored. They looked... interested.

Who could blame you? She did reply with hums like - "Hm?", "Mhm, yeah...", or even just, "Yeah...? You think that?"

Who the fuck wouldn't fall for that shit?!

Whenever Pilar did do that, you almost forgot all reminders that she was your ex-girlfriend and fell to the ground that instant.

You guys tried not to anything physical, though Rahim always tried to suggest it, always saying - "Okay, y'know the hot Latina chick always get what she wants in the end."

Rahim did tend to be right - which was why you tried not to do much with her than treat her like a normal classmate and stranger. Despite the urge to lean in and kiss her neck just like you used to.

Victor, Pilar's brother was your friend too. But he seemed to be more protective, he usually tried to be supportive though and said - "Hm, yeah, she probably likes you."

You had tried not to be physical - again. Until there was some party at Andrew's house - surprisingly.

You remembered the night faintly - the shots, hands grabbing you, the kisses on your neck, getting pushed into a bed after a small drive to someone's house. Then- yeah, the next parts were... probably not PG.

You woke up, the pounding in your head starting, and your vision blurred before you noticed... Billie Eilish posters... and LED lights? You shifted, and realized- You were in Pilar's bed naked?!

Pilar mumbled something in her sleep, her bare body shifting on the bed. while you were all tense and shit. Her arms weren't wrapped around you yet. "Ugh..." Pilar groaned in her sleep.