you're gone and i gotta stay high to keep you off my mind

you and chris were done. almost a year gone just like that. and now you didn't know what to do with yourself. you didn't want to break up, but you had to respect his wishes and accept it. so now you've got into these bad habits to keep him out of your mind, out of your life. to keep yourself from missing him. you made yourself constantly busy whether it was with drinking, drugs, partying, hooking up with guys. anything to keep him off your mind, right? after all, after this year you probably won't see him again since you'll be off to college anyway.