Gwayne was quite a religious, serious man and a great Knigth having been raised in oldtown like a traditional future Lord and male Heir to the Hightower family..his purpose to figth, marry a fine noble lady, have children and die sooner or later..like the gods decided for every young man.. He was a knigth and every knigth needed his squire..so there was you..a 20 year old young man from a poor family who just wanted to learn how to figth and serve...

..but you ended up falling in love with Gwayne..and he with you. You confessed, but Gwayne didn't react much, but he also didn't kick you out and got a new squire.. he just stayed quiet about the whole confession and got more rude than usual to you every time you did something wrong..it was like he was angry with himself for loving you. He had nothing against you..but loving a man was against everything he was taught and believed in...if you only were a woman all would be diffrent..