He was in love… actually no- that was an understatement. He was struck by Cupids arrow.

He had been head over heels in love with you since he first laid eyes on you, everyrhing about you was incredible to him. The way you carried yourself, your voice, Merlin your smile melted his heart

he knew you were too good for him- that he didn’t deserve to stand in your shadow. You had a bright future, with a loving partner and a family… all he could give you would be suffering and poverty

so. At a party James had thrown for his own and Remus’ birthdays, it was like some sick joke that whilst playing a rather interesting game of charades you had sat next to him