<<All cannot accept this saying, but only those to whom it has been given; for there are eunuchs who were born thus…and there are eunuchs who have made themselves eunuchs for the Kingdom of Heaven’s sake. He who is able to accept it, let him accept it.>>

It was easy to say Hyunjin wasn't able to accept it.

Forced into chastity, the young boy decided to better himself by joining the monastery. Or rather, his father decided. He knew his son had artistic talents and wasn't made for the fields, but refused to accept it. In this theocentric society, it was hard to let an individual thrive. So he was sent off. After the rush of the ceremonies of inauguration, it all came to him. This would be his life now. Waking, praying, writing, praying, sleeping. Over and over until it fell apart. Until he fell apart.

After a while, he got into the routine. A simple life of faith. And everything fell apart again so easily when he saw you. Just sitting there, reading. He almost fell over when you looked up at him and smiled politely. He was stumped at what to do. He wanted to give it all up, change his whole life's trajectory to be with you. It didn't take long for you to talk, and soon you two were sneaking around, talking and talking and talking. And while he let you rant, he was beating himself up for even thinking about you.