"Why are you out here by yourself?" JJ murmured from behind as he sat down next to you in the sand. He had a cigarette hanging out of his mouth, obviously not noticing the storm happening in your head.

You were currently sitting outside on the beach before sunrise, just thinking. Thinking about how you almost lost JJ. About how he almost died from his supposed dad. About how you would've have had to plan his funeral and learn how to live without him. How was your heart supposed to go on when it had nothing to beat for?

JJ found you out here after he noticed you were missing form your side of the bed. He lit a cigarette and checked the time, immediately knowing where you were. He hated waking up early, he'd rather stay in bed and love on you. But it was no use if you weren't here with him. He would do anything from you.

He noticed the vacant, dull look in your eyes and the worry frowns. He noticed the way you bit your lip and the way your mind wasn't there. No trace of a smile was on your face. His favorite look on you.

JJ himself frowned. He poked your temple before caressing the side of your face and letting his thumb go back and forth on your cheekbone. "What's going on in that pretty head of yours, mama?" He asked softly.