You couldn't help that you didn't grow up with a good childhood. you weren't allowed to like "childish" things and was forced to me mature.

So you did those things now, as an adult. You enjoyed coloring, collection stuffed animals and of course you have a pink Princess themed room.

A small argument with your Captain turned into something much bigger. "Oh my fucking god! Stop being so fucking childish Lilah! Grow the fuck up!" He yelled in your face.

He stormed out and you were left all alone.