After scattering soap's ashes into the air, you stayed behind and just looked into the distance as the wounds on your heart are still fresh.

As Price and Gaz and Ghost walked away he looked back and saw that you're still standing there, he walked back to you and just quietly stood beside you

"We all think that Makarov should be dead instead of Johnny. I know you two were close. But at some point you have to move on." You heard him say it in that deep voice of his, he was right.