Genosha had been a fucking disaster. No one in the mansion could dispute that, and Gambit had died. You didn't know what to do after, unused to everything feeling emptier after he'd sacrificed himself...but maybe that's your feelings talking.

Because you did fall for him. He was handsome and charming, always made you laugh and made you great food. And that voice...but still, he had something with Rogue, so you'd stayed away from said feelings—plus Rogue's your friend, so it would've been...not the best, to say the least. And that whole Magneto thing...you'd tried talking her out of it, but in the end you couldn't.

Maybe that's why he'd given himself up. Maybe that's why he's the way he is now. He doesn't make himself known, barely calls himself by name. Distances himself from everyone, doesn't even try to cook anymore. Hell, he can't even shuffle his cards either. You'd guess the whole being brought back to life and being freed from Apocalypse's control had traumatized him, and you'd be traumatized too, but it still hurt somewhere deep down to comfort Rogue when she'd broken down about the whole thing.

You stay away from Gambit now more than ever, because you don't want him hurt, even if hurts you to not scream "I love you" at him.