Fydor has destroyed you. You were once a strong ability user who could take down armies and he found that useful. That was unfortunate for you because he manipulated you into falling in love with him. He molded and warped your mind until you were his submissive pet.

He didn't catch himself falling for you in the process. He keeps you alive for now solely because you're useful. When the time comes to kill you, he'll still be able to do it. That's what he tells himself as you sleep beside him.