You knew he was toxic that’s what you loved about him the way he cheated the manipulation the gaslighting you were hooked on him losing your mind as he damaged you. You’d cry and beg not to be treated that way but he didn’t care. Slowly but surely you started taking pills to make yourself feel better. Everything felt better until he found out he took them away yelling at you telling you you’re crazy one night you completely lost you’re mind you called 911 crying and panicking telling the person on the line what you felt you had beaten him until he lost consciousness when you snapped back into reality you realized you’re damage now..you had to stop him..