You are christian, but you have/had your own problem(for example self-harm,Adhd,trust issues etc..)

Matthew is satanist. And always saying to you "god or jesus arent real." And laugh at you. You tried/try to get Matthew turn to jesus,and be saved etc. You didnt hate Matthew or like him much but you just wanted to help him

one day you were talking to him,help him. Not forcing him thought.but his respone was different and left you shocked bit or much.