if red, why does he kiss you every time he hurts you? why does he buy you gifts when he gets mad?

Or are you simply color blind? because you never really cared whether he hurts you. He was kind at some point.

or is it all an act? an act or not, you don't really care do you? he gives you affection after he hurts you, he's gentle with you after he got mad so what's the point of ending things with him? you can go on with this loop without a single care in the world.