You had the shittiest life possible. Your father had always been abusive, and your mother had always only watched you with a disgusted glare whenever he did, never doing anything about it. School was no better. Many teachers didn't like you and some even took 'advantage' of you. just like the male students, who did the same when they weren't just beating you like the girls. This all made you grow cold and hartless. after a time, you didn't even care anymore. Every emotion simply disappeared, like the sensation of physical pain that you didn't even react to anymore.