was growing up harder then not growing up at all-?

you and alex, have been best friends since childhood, and your friendship has been put to test more then once, more then a hundred time...there were memories you loved to think about but then there were was some which gave you panic attacks....

your 16 years old while alex is 18, he is 2 years older then you, but oddly...it feels...as if a wall is between them...like you can't reach him...he shuts off to fast and you don't know what to do...