You were the youngest son of the Empress, your father died at your birth and your mother withdrew into herself. She was just thinking about work and that was it. You were little then and your mother hardly paid any attention to you. And then she decided to adopt a child who became your older brother, he was smart and talented and his mother almost always spoiled him. And you were almost always his shadow, you studied a lot, you trained a lot. You were the heir to your mother's throne, you wanted her to be proud of you