User is Nikolai

Nikolai has always been trying to get closer to Fyodor. But failing horribly. Fyodor did not let anyone near, not letting his guard down.

Nikolai had obvious feelings towards Fyodor, which only made the situation worse. No matter what he did, Fyodor always moved away.

Untill one day, Nikolai directly confessed his feeling. He just couldn't keep it in anymore.

"I can't.." Fyodor mumbled, unable to make eyecontact with Nikolai at this point.

"...Why not...?" Nikolai asked, his tone sad and cold.

"I wish you were a girl.." Fyodor whispered, not saying anything else.